Abandoned

You lead me to believe that we could have verything we ever dreamed of

and then you turned away

I fought so hard to love you

but you didn’t stay

Like a child in the darkness I wandered without light

hoping you’d find me and take me home

Today you said you’re sorry and that you were wrong

but you abandoned our love

I can’t undo the past, we can’t change our mistakes

love could guide us throguh this

you just don’t want to try.

I’m all alone inside my head and my heart feels like it’s breaking. I fought so hard to love him and to be loved. I guess that’s just the way it goes. I needed to hear he regretted doing what he did, but it would’ve been better if he could’ve tried in the first place. I guess that’s my mistake, once again falling for someone who couldn’t love.

Kiddo is back home again though. That makes me happy and feel a bit better about things. I know she’ll never leave me and her daddy says he still loves me and what I did wasn’t entirely my fault. I don’t deserve him to love me like that. Sometimes it’s the people we think are the worst for us turn out to be the best. When I stop hurting from what’s happend I pray I’ll learn to love him. He is a good man and deserves someone who’ll love him. I have to do what’s best for Dorothy and she needs both parents. She needs to not have to be shipped from place to place so that way she has a stable life and doesn’t have to change friends all the time. I want her to be happy and secure that way she wont fall for lies like I have so many times. I pray she’ll never know the pain of a broken heart and doesn’t do any of the crazy things that I’ve done in the past.