Self Assessment.. Of Sorts

I find myself at a loss, as of late, to properly understand the kind of person I really am. To figure out whether my most poignant traits are flaws, rather than characterstics that could be considered a little more endearing.

I guess I like to over analyse most of the situations, conversations, experiences in my life. It must come out of boredom and all the time that unemployment has now placed in my hands. Which I know could potentially lead to me becoming neurotic. I sometimes leave myself feeling so anxious and paranoid that I feel physically ill. It’s gotten to that point.

I am aware of my tendencies to be overbearing, over enthusiastic, impetuous, idealistic, childish in my eagerness, breash, brutally honest, hyper sensitive and easily disappointed.

I guess this all comes when trying to see yourself through the eyes of another person. More specifically, your partner. With nothing at all being wrong in the relationship, maybe this stems out of the human need for drama? Or that sick obsession we all have for being the eternal pessimist.

Maybe I should just go to bed.