My time
I heard a man and a boy’s voice outside the door. I heard the man dropped the water bottle and took awhile to enter the store. I could tell instantly that the child was autisttic. The boy wanted the red hot candies from the candy vending machine. The man seemed to be his father. He kept making sure the boy was ok. The boy babbled and acted just like Joshua. He put the boy in the car first before he picked up his bottles from the store. I asked the father, “I’m sorry, I’m just wondering if your child has autism?” “Yes, how did you know that?” “My son is autistic. Did he go to the Richardson Center and goes to VAC?” “Yes.” “Is he nonverbal?” “Yes.” “how about toilet trained?” “yes. He’s 13 years old and he was toilet trained when he was 9. How old is your son?” “He’s 5.” “Oh, you have a long way to go” smiling. “How didyou toilet train him?” “We kept a journal for few weeks what time of the day he went pee or poop. We took him to the potty consistently and had him sit on the toilet. Then, one day he finally got it.” “9 years… That’s a lot of diapers.” “Yes, just don’t giv up. He’ll get it one day. It’ll take a while, but it’ll happen.” We said good-bye and he left. 9 years… I read on the autism mother blog once that this autistic child was toilet trained when he was in his 20’s. Bless the mother… I’m not sad or depressed about it. I just want that Joshua will become self-functional one day that he could live independently when Jays and I aren’t here for him anymore. I can only pray and do my best to help my Joshua.
Jays told me that VAC wants to interview us and write an inspirational story for their book or something for April is being autism awareness month. I guess they are selecting few families to write the stories on how family overcomes autism and their life with autism. Sounds exciting.
I spent about $800 on store merchandise. Its not even filling up the half of the shelves. I probably will fill couple more shelves from Costco on Sunday. I bought immitation perfumes with similar names and explains what perfume each bottle features. I tried the Ralph one and smells the same. I’m selling it for 7 bucks each. I got men and women kind. Jays wants to get the rest in few weeks.
Taking kids to business trip is hard. I feel bad for the girls. I told Jays that I’ll just stay home to watch the kids next time and he can go on the day our worker works. We can just talk on the phone. It’ll be easier when my mom visits again sometimes soon.
I probably have to watch the kids at home for more than half of the day tomorrow. Jays will work alone. The worker is taking the day off to go to see the Dodger’s game with her bf. Kids are much more comfortable at home.
I wish I could take the kids to the zoo before it gets too hot here. We have to see if we can. If not, maybe we need to wait until the fall.
I want to drink. I don’t get any chance to. If Kristie visits, we could go to the bar again.
I have friends in L.A. but haven’t seen them yet for decades. I don’t know when. It won’t be for a while.
Rocky is expecting Jays and I go to his sister’s wedding in June or July. I don’t know how if its on Saturday. Plus, she doesn’t want kids there. So, I guess I can’t go.
I’m slowly losing weight. Its a good thing. I know I’ll never get my body back, but I want my jeans back!
I picture myself sitting in front of a baby grand piano by a window, where the sunshine comes thru, and drinking coffee or tea. It will come true one day.
I’m so tired… Goodnight moon.
I want to age pretty and happy.