Bionic vision austrilia

I just can’t find a comfortable way to sleep. Takes forever to turn my body over. I think I’m 30wk pregnant. I’m very clumsy. I slip and fall. I fell off the stairs outside going to the car scraping my right foot on weekend. I forget things. I often lose my temper when Elizabeth throws fits. I feel bad. Like last night, She didn’t want to sleep. She sat down by the bedroom door with her blankie screaming and crying for like 20 minutes. Joshua tucked his head under the pillow because they hurt his ears. I usually try to reason with her, but I was damn tired and my body couldn’t move much, so I let her scream and cry to sleep. I carried her and lied her down by my side. I covered her with her blankie and brushed her hair away from her face and wiped her tears. Just 10 more weeks, then I’ll be done with being pregnant and should be back to my old self.

Elizabeth went to Costco with grandma this morning. She likes there. She likes eating all the food samples that they give out. I packed her hello kitty diaper bag with gold fish crackers, a choco pie, a little bag of jellies, 2 small lollipops, and 2 fruit drinks. She doesn’t eat all that, but she likes stuffing her bag with goodies like she’s going on a picnic.

I would like her to go to a daycare few times a week just to socialize and have fun with other kids, but she hates going there. I just sent her for 2 weeks, twice a week, and she would hung on to me with her dear life pleading and crying no mommy, no mommy. So, I stopped. I didn’t want to force her. I guess she’s not ready yet.

Jays called me from work last week all excited told me about bionic eye that this Austrilian research group came up with. I went online searched and looked on youtube. Its a device they place in the retina and will help totally blind people to see. Its still on a trial. For the first time, they placed it in a woman’s one eye who couldn’t see at all and she was able to see lights and shapes. It can’t restore the normal eyesight yet, but it’ll help people to see large prints and recognize faces and walk independently without using canes or dogs. It can’t recognize the colors or anything like that yet, but its a huge step. I was blown away. Getting my eyesight back was just a dream and a miracle that I’ve been praying so profoundly every day. Now, they came out with it. Its a dream come true. This is a start, a flick of light. Maybe 5-10 years or little longer that I may have to wait, but I don’t care. My heart pounds with hopes and excitement. Being able to see the faces of my loved ones sure will worth to wait. I already have been through so much in the past, nothing will discourage me or pull me down. I have something to look for and future looks more colorful.

My mom has to pick up Joshua this week from school, because Jays needs to work on the festival for this Saturday. My mom also picking up my nephew. He will be here for the afternoon until my brother gets off work.

I know I said this before that I love my hair right now. 🙂 I haven’t had this kind of thick and full for a long time.So soft. My hair is growing fast that Jays already had to cut my bangs twice within 2 months. He’s better at it now. Better than some of the hair cutting people at the salon. lol He cuts everyone’s hair. Joshua’s is little bit challenging, because we have to cut his hair when he’s in a deep sleep. We both have to get involved. I roll him around and Jays cuts his hair. Cutting hair stresses Joshua very much that he nose bleeds. So, we haven’t taken him to cut his hair for a long time. Joshua’s nose bleeds every time something stresses him out.

We’re talking about all of us drive to California to move or Jays and his friend drive there first and settle things down, then Jays flies to Ohio and fly back to California altogether. I don’t know what’s better. Baby will be only less than 3 months and I’m scared to death to fly. But then, driving will be very hard for the kids.