10/20/2013
I’ve played an insane amount of Pokemon in the past week, and I have zero regrets about it.
I had a photoshoot with my Portland Best Friend about a week ago. She has seriously crippling insecurity, so she is incapable of seeing herself as beautiful. It’s heartbreaking. It’s making editing them extra hard, because I’m being hyper-critical, since I know she will be, and …I just don’t think there’s anything I could do to convince her that I (and everyone else!) see(s) her as beautiful. She’s an intelligent, funny, caring woman with an adorable kitty and a great job in a fantastic town, but right now she can’t see past “I’m ugly and my boyfriend broke up with me.” It’s hard.
I’m only teaching one day a week, and it is super strange. I have 5 students, 3 piano and 2 voice, and it’s so…easy. No monsters, no asshole little boys; only 2 kids are playing in recital and they don’t have to be memorized; there’s never any crazy rescheduling and I get paid for no-shows no questions asked. But it also feels more soulless than teaching at the studio back home. It’s interesting. I haven’t fallen in love with any of my new students, and I don’t know why. Compared to how much I care about every single child I taught before…it’s just weird.
Two days ago as we went to bed, in the perfect little spoon cuddle, I said, “I was actually happy today.” It was a good feeling to not be faking it.
Yesterday we went out to Sauvie Island to go to the pumpkin patch. It was a “We pick, you pick,” which I’ve never done before; “You pick” is way more fun. But it was an absolutely perfect day out, and it was fantastic to be outside on a perfect fall day in PNW with my best friends.
Today is a sweatshirt and tights day, cuddled up on the couch under my favorite fuzzy blanket, listening to music and editing or playing pokemon or watching bad reality tv.
That’s how some of the BEST kind of Sundays happen ♥
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That’s how some of the BEST kind of Sundays happen ♥
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That’s how some of the BEST kind of Sundays happen ♥
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