08/21/2012

Jamie told our group of friends that if we mentioned any drama that person had to leave. I was actually pleased with that. A girl in our group did something stupid, so a few people have sort of "shunned" her, but they haven’t acted rude to her or anything. They’re just disappointed in her. Anyway, she got pissed and said everyone was giving off a "vibe" and she wasn’t wanting to be around us anymore. Apparently she’s mad at me as well even though I have tried being nice and talked to her the last time she was at Jamie’s and she didn’t even say anything back. So whatever. You can’t say no one was talking to you when someone did, and you ignored them, and the others that didn’t say anything to you, you didn’t say anything to them. It’s a two way street.

So yeah, thankfully Jamie said that because both Casey and I thought shit was going to hit the fan because of her and Miranda. Miranda has the tendency to try and blow things up. And she doesn’t like Casey. So pretty much the group broke into two.1)Jamie, Casey, me, Rocky, Eric, and Heath, and 2) Jamie, Taylor, Mae Mae, Miranda, and Garett. Garett has tried texting me a few times. I don’t really say much back. I don’t text his girlfriend (Miranda), why should I text him?

I’m feeling great with Rocky. I love him so much. And I think he might be a wee bit more attached to me than I am him, so that makes me feel safe. I wouldn’t cheat or leave him or anything, so knowing he is more attached makes me feel like I don’t have to worry. For example, he cries sometimes when I leave. I don’t recall ever crying when he’s left. Hell, I’ve never had a guy cry about me going home. It makes me feel special. And slightly off. He doesn’t seem like the kind of guy that’s so sensitive either so I don’t feel like the man in the relationship. I just feel really wanted.