A Long Overdue about Nothing.

Back again…with words and deeds aloft; luscious tales of adventure, exploration, (and of course) jubilation!
There are however, (as always) some negative moments as well….or at the least, some moments of which I’m unsure if I made the correct choice or not. Thus is life I suppose…and likewise, so it is how my adventure continues:

First and foremost:

Its spring. Its also cold as hell here in Missouri. Though, I did drive ’round with the top down on more than one occassion. I cannot wait for the days of shine and light. Soon enough, it cannot come…

Second. Work has been crazy. Crazy. Crazy.

My next trial is set for April 19th. Its a forcible rape trial. I do seem to attact the serious cases, don’t I? I’ve been working like mad on this case, and its honestly somewhat consuming me. Its one of those cases which I truly feel will be won or lost largely by my lawyering skills. So…I’m a bit stressed.

Third. Girl World. Girl world has gone-crazy spinning out of control!

Example: for my birthday celebrations, i had a party in Saint Louis (with STL gal), a party in Columbia (with columbia gal) and a party here in Hannibal (with Quincy gal) all in the same weekend. The problem is…..none of them really do it for it. Its fucking frustrating. Already, in the past few weeks, my interest is waning. My hands are in fists at this point. I just want someone to settle down with, have a family, etc. etc. etc. I’m 32, and its still not happening. Grrr!

On a positive note, I had a date in Columbia with a gal with potential. I found her dashingly attractive (and she’s not blonde!), but we’ll see how it goes on Saturday. It also gives me a chance to hang with my friends in columbia.

Fourth: I broke down and bought Final Fantasy XIII (13). It has been entertaining me over this dreary weekend. Everytime it seems I want to go out to the clubs in Quincy for a night o’ dancing, the gods of weather fuck me over with a rain/snowstorm. (The miata does not play well in such weather).

Fifth: I decided NOT to try to transfer to Saint Louis. I decided to stay out here in rural, MO for a bit longer. Part of that has to do with #6.

Sixth: Quincy University had decided to allow me to teach a course of my own design. From now on, I’ll be teaching ethics in the fall, and philosophy of law in the spring. I’m so excited! My students this past semester gave me rave reviews it seems, which helped I’m sure.

Seventh: I’m coming home to PA over Memorial day. I cannot wait. Sunshine and rainbows and gumdrops await. And hopefully a trip to hersheypark…..and definitely an adventure to New York City.

Which brings me to my last point. M. Yes, the M. From way back in 2001. M. M. and I have been talking. My heart still flutters for that girl like no other, I swear. But my mind reminds me that it cannot work like this. Not this now. Not this way.

But still, it brings a smile to my face, as we talk about law and her law-job in NJ. I love how far we’ve both come. How we both somehow ended on the same path without ever having this path when we stopped talking.

She says the words I want to hear. Thats the worst (or the best). I can still feel this heart beat, like back in the day; when skyscrapers lined the horizon and anything but the moment was unimportant…..

My life is 90% in place. That remaining 10% threatens to drown out the other 90. I know me. At some point, it will drown it out. The only question is when.

The race continues….

Oodles o’ love,
Erotique