today

Today is my dad’s birthday. Today hasn’t been going that great. I hate emotions and the loss of control they bring. It’s so much easier for me to keep everything bottled up inside and hate that. Unemotional hate is so much easier to deal with. It’s when I hate myself and I can actually feel it that it becomes something of a chore to deal with. I don’t even know what I’m talking about. I’m just having a bad day.