Why me tho

Like I keep thinking and turning this around and around. He has a gf.

Why me?

Why not drop the girl and then pursue me.

I mean I can’t compare the people.

Idiot did what he did because he was selfish.

This dude, too.

But the difference is what?

Different guy. Better. He works same place ten years, is active in his kids lives, that I can tell anyway.

In that light, there’s no comparison.

Yet, I just want something more than just sex. I do.

I don’t want all these games, I’m not playing anymore.

My heart broke. It would be nice to love, again I just want to be happy. But skeptical because men are shit. And I’m probably not really ready. It’s nice to be wanted but it’s just too stressful for me

I want to be wanted, properly, because if he does it to her he can do that to me, too. And maybe he just can’t be satisfied.