Why i am like this
I have no idea but he said he’s really trying to make it work for us, so idk either i sit here and wait around, which i promised to never do anymore or i get what i want.
What i don’t want to do is get ready and it doesn’t happen at all. So, I’m trying to just keep things neutral.
But thats really hard to do. Its just its what i want and I’m afraid it’ll get screwed up, somehow.
I’m a grown ass woman, why am i acting this way now?
Because i feel like if it doesn’t happen, it never will.
I want him to know i am serious about things this time, but maybe he feels like he’s an option, too.
I honestly did blow him off so many times in the past so it’ll serve me right if it doesn’t, again.
He did ask why now, and i did tell him i wasn’t interested in being anyones side dish at the time, he was in a relationship and so was i, but that I’ve always been interested.
Idk whats up w roommate but i know hes not mentally stable, either. 3 months without sex is unacceptable. Especially when hes been talking w others, trying to meet them and everything else i don’t know about so its on him if i get w other dude because he didn’t want me anymore and he sure treats me like shhh.
I just want to be happy.