Trying

Its really hard to follow this 3 day rule thing…

But i am willing,  at this point.

It will help or it will fail. Either wsy i have nothing.

I want to keep sending him reminders of what’s here, but why tf should i?

I keep bouncing this proverbial ball to him, expecting him to pick it up and bounce it back, but i run over and pick it up again to show him, maybe he didn’t see that i did?

Like a dog wanting to play fetch.

And thats how i feel and we all know it.

I bounced the ball to him, now i need to let it go

And I’m sorry for only wanting what you gave to others but had a hard time giving me.

But you love me. And i know love shouldn’t ever feel this way.

He knows what he has with me.

And hes made it clear he doesn’t want me.

Or does he?

See? He says shit like he still wants to hook up and doesn’t want that w anyone else but then turns around and validates his actions online.

He did text AE last night, and was texted back almost immediately.

Nothing,  yet.

Its a game, i refuse to play.

And I’m playing,  but he has no idea.