Long nite

It’s going to be a long night. Went to Dr, got thrown back on a ton of meds for the bronchitis and I got lotion and powder for my psoriasis. Then a few days later, my blood work came back abnormal. So now I’m on an entire pharmacy regimen of vitamins.

This is ridiculous.

I’ve no energy, so I hope that the vitamins will help with this.

I was hoping the steroids would kick my ass into gear but not this time, anyway.

In other news, dude hasn’t said much since like two weeks, now. I’m not going to reach out anymore. I’m not desperate for his attention.

But of course in the back of my mind, I’m thinking about the last guy and how bad he said he wanted me and how at home I felt in his arms, after I finally gave him that chance and look where we are, now. And I’m still rather upset over it.

So I’m glad I decided to pass on this offer from another guy who said he always wanted me since we were younger, because I know damn well, what will happen.

And the same shit happened w my daughter’s dad and I don’t think I’ll ever fully heal from that.

He did make another payment Friday of last week for $188. That’s a total of four payments since I re-established support.

Of course I spent every dime of it on the kids, except gas and I really needed a haircut. After 8 years of nothing, I felt I at least deserved to treat myself for all the times I’ve had to go without, because of him. I also know that this will not last long and I cannot depend on his help at all.

He’s also over 7 grand behind, now although if I really want to press the issue he could be over $24,000. If and when the next payment is received, I would like to get my girl a new bedding set and rug for her bedroom. I also need to repaint and spackle it.

Anyway, I’m done w guys for awhile.

Not sure if our weekend plans just yet, but it will just be me and my daughter. My son went home today to spend time with his dad. On Saturday I’m supposed to drop roommate at the track and he will be out of my hair all day long.

Then Sunday he wants to take me to his bosses other business. I’ve never been so curiousity got me and I can bring my girl, too.

Just don’t know how I will feel by then.

Bathroom and back to bed for me. I gotta go play taxi in the morning for roommate.