Just a bit more

So he messaged me today telling me he just took a shower and hes watching a game w his dad and then wrote “i guess you don’t want to talk to me.” I’m not that person, even if i am mad so i told him he can always talk to me. No response for like 3 hours and then tells me he’s going to bed.

I was enjoying a day of peace til that point.

I said ok and that was it but what i really wanted to say was that i just don’t care and just don’t believe him anymore.

And I’m not starting anything. I do have every right to feel like I’m just an option to him.

He brought that to me by doing all this chatting w random chicks online.  Most of them, tbh just don’t even respond at all. But my point is that its disrespectful.

I’m upset because i truly am trapped. I been here already.

I bounce back but this time i really got to consider this further.

My lack of truck hinders my schedule completely.  When she’s back to school, my hours are from 9-2 mon thru Thursday.  230, is rushing things for me. No weekends.  Not one. And i need off every school holidays,  for both kids.

Now my son gets out earlier and from my house thats a ten minute drive.

So… ok. 25 hrs, weekly. Lets say 12 an hour. Thats about 300 bucks.

Less than 1200 a month.

Or keep posting.

On my time. Doing things at my pace.

I need more than one source.  Consignments.  Ect. I can’t until truck.

I gotta finish this thought later because I’m falling asleep

 

Okay continuing…

Its just the better option.  Idk if i can bring in that much w it.

We will see.

Anyway,  later today my mom will pick us up and go shoe shopping for my son.

Then grocery. Then drop me and her off then my son goes home.

Didn’t do a damn thing i had hoped to do.

That bunny tho.

My kids love him.