Idk

Maybe he’s working second shift?

Maybe he’s out w his kids? The thing is, he knows damn well i am at home with the kids.

Is he walking here? 15 hour walk?

Nah, probably not.

But desperation might bring him back here.

15 hour walk, tho. One hour drive i find it hard to believe it takes that long, but whatever.

He might be w a random chick.

I just can’t see it, tho.

We had fire when we hooked up the first time, so much fire that the mts near us were actually on fire and i was too awestruck by him to notice on my way home. But i remember how stiffed up he got w me when he fucked up and didn’t want to.touch me.

He treats his body like a rollercoaster,  tho.

I saw someone made fun of him on his private group for a video w his shirt off.

Like, thats hs bs but hes 48 and already pretty down on life.

Maybe he’s locked up, again.

Maybe hes w his son. Maybe his daughter and tammy and shes hooking him up, which is why he got pretty on Wednesday.

Maybe a date.

Maybe hes just in his bedroom,  crying.

I hate when hes like this, blocks me everywhere so i can’t know.

I worry.

Maybe he checked himself in?

Nah.

I should go to bed.

 

Ugh.