I dont

Remember dates very well, but if i were still married, today was an anniversary.  Idk 07. Would have been 13 years. Smfh.

Anyway, this dude called me inviting himself here for a few days,  later this week. Well, tomorrow actually.  I think he said fuck, if it rains Thurs,  I’ll just come tomorrow.

If not, it will be Thursday after work into Friday….

I like that he wants to be here with me, i dont know how to keep up the facade. I hate his living conditions but i do think its all absolute necessity for his anger.

If he’d have fucking told me this instead of the games i got trying to talk w him… ugh.

Weeks of unnecessary mental bs. He has really done more damage NOT cheating on me.

But, he did put it a certain way…

he can handle himself, even if they can’t.  I said same as me.

But see, I’m not jealous of them in the way he thinks i am.

I am mad because he used them to hurt me, talked w them about shit he should have come to me with, and i felt like an option. He insists he didn’t.  Doesn’t matter what he thinks, its how i felt and still feel. He did.

And he hid me, once again.

I like this extra attention… for the week. But i second guess this shit

So, i just need to detach, once i figure out his route. Just wish his anger would stop.