Clear

Or maybe its cloudy, today. Maybe it really is an ice storm and maybe just maybe I’ll accomplish something other than sitting here all alone with my

thoughts, while the man is upstairs alone with his and his online friends.

See, the thing is- I love all my online friends, many of them I’ve known for over 20 years.

Some, I’ve not met, others I have. My point is that I’ve never placed their importance over my own familys.

Or have I?

I mean, if they truly needed me, they all know I’d drop on a dime, but i certainly would not spend 4 weeks online, away from my own.

No Thank you, and if thats the lifestyle you want to be in, I’ll not compete, but I’ll also not allow you to come within inches of me.

The two paper dry kisses he gave me yesterday, nah. I’m worth more than this.

A half hug. NAAAAH.

And I’ve said as much when he asked me for sex. I told him I’m not interested in anyone who wants to keep me their secret, online or off.

Nope nope nope, I’m not that girl, anymore.  He;s home, today writing in his CBT book, and good for him.

Our relationship is unhealthy and I’ll do what i said I would do, and I’ll focus on that, instead.

First, my car gotta get fixed.

Then, I’ll start packing up totes and bringing them to storage.

Not today, but maybe this weekend. If he goes on ignoring me all day long, I’ll keep myself busy somehow.

But its gonna hurt