Breathe

My anxiety is so high, right now. I feel like my soul was ripped out of me and will never return.

This is why i need apply the three day rule. I went to him for everything.  He doesn’t want to get help for his anger,  he doesn’t want me for anything other than sex and right now, all i really want is to just stop tormenting myself. Which is why i choose to write all my thoughts, here.

His sister keeps posting all this stuff to him, and me about our situation.

I ended up crying.

Today, i played with lilly, my son is here,  i just need a break tonight.

Hes non communication w AE.

So, he’s pulling away from that, too.

I’m overthinking his words.

I just miss him. This is supposedly trauma bonding or codependency or whatever bullshit I’ve been reading about what i am.

Idc

I’m depressed because it got too far, and he should have just gotten the fucking help he needs so we can be happier.

This love is probably toxic, because love is supposed to heal, not hurt so damn bad.