UpDATErs

Um I should update

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Ethnic night
– was a hit….tons of fun!  I made pergories and brought some wine.  There was 8 of us and we have decided to do it again…since it was a sucess…although this time can make anything pretty much or a mexicany type theme- something along those lines.
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E
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I have not spoken to him in quite some time….I finally deleted him off my facebook and my msn.  I told him I was deleting him and that is when he msged me.  Which I am still not sure how since he was already blocked and I deleted him…I am guessing he was real quick to reply.  Anyways…he apologized for hurting me and said to not hate hem…..I told him I did not hate him (trufully I am flip flopping on that though)……he is still having money problems his phone has been cut off. I told him will make it and then that was that.
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I swore infront of a nun last weekend by accident @ the mall….so going to hell! hehe
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Brother’s bday is coming up….I went during lunch with a coworker to check out kayaks they are about $400 bucks….I wanted to get him a Wii but the stupid things are still sold out everywhere sheesh!
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They want to push up my closing date for my house to the 22 of Aug…I am pretty indifferent….but if they want to do that….they have to bring down the price…that or give me the couch I want hehe
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I deleted X from my facebook and blocked her….she is toxic….and still am not ready or wanting her back in my life….*shrugs*
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D quit her job!! 🙂 she found something better finally…I am wicked happy for her
– this weekend or next week we have to go shopping….and we also have to get a wedding shower gift for "I"
– there is a pool party thing we might attend
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The biggish news…which I will spend the most on is that on the 24th (Tuesday) I went on my first official date
-I went out with E a few times but we were already seeing each other so slightly different
-this on the other hand was interesting!  So the guy from work the "beautiful as a flower" dood and I were chatting (online) @ work (known him for pretty much 11 months now)
– he asked me when I was leaving work….I said in about 10 mins…he asked if I was going home right away….I replied "not if you are going to follow me"…..well what if I follow you  he said….I told him that we could go whereever he wanted to go……..he suggested dinner.
– Sure…dinner it was….I told him the place (didnt know the name….and just gave him a general area) I didnt have my cell….and we were going to meet there…well that turned into him standing me up lol….he has no idea what I was talking about….he went into the mall and was looking for me.  I figured he didnt know what I was talking about quite early on….I actually was going to be shocked if he showed up…since there is no way a "normalish" person would have known
– I came to work to find 2 msgs on my phone…they were oober cute…he was walking around trying to find me and apologizing…..he came into work that day (since he is not always there- he does not work @ the office really)….I walked over to him and poked him….he started apologizing again…I laughed and told him it was okay…I did not really give proper instructions anyways….he had a meeting to go to….
– he msg me when he got out….and we chatted for a bit…..he did not reschedule with me…and then he bascially said he was going….I was like wtf?! so I got up and walked over to him….my heart was racing and I froze…I got infront of him and was like….well okay bye have a good day and walked back to my desk. (yah Im a geek!)
– I came home….and I waited til 6 ish and I called him- its free then *shrugs*.  I bascially asked him if he knew who it was..which he didnt…I told him and then I blurted out "are you seriously not going to reshedule with me?!" he replied- YES I am!
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_____Day 2______ I got distracted….and didnt finish this yesterday…so now I will continue
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– we would talk for a little bit…
– I told him he made me nervous (we officially say WAY too much to eachother…and that became increasing noticable as Tuesday would roll around)…and I told him about the office thing…he said he thought I wanted to talk about it when I came over ….he was gad I got nervous cause people in the office talk way too much….and laughed *blinks* lol…..
– he was getting together with people from work so he said he would call me back….
– he actually did call back…he went outside the ‘get together’ to call me back (since the last thing I or he needs is anything about this getting out at work)
– so he commented at this time about me just blurting our the rescheduling thing…he was like you didnt even ask if I was busy….how I was doing…nothing…I laughed….cause it was true….
– he kept asking me why I was nervous…I refused to tell him….just that it was not a bad thing.
– anyways…we talked for a bit and decided on Tuesday
-he came in and msged me at work on Friday….he wanted to know why I was nervous honestly this went on for way too long….a good 20mins of him asking…..and me saying I didnt want to say
– he then called me at 1 on my cell…he thought I was done but didnt have summer hrs that day….so he called me back at work….free once again
– he continued to ask about the nervous thing…and that is when I was finally said "because I like you"
– I REALLY did not want to say that…..not because it wasnt true (I do kinda…I think) but still…was def not ready to say it!….I am not even ready to feel it
– he was flattered etc etc…..and he went into this speach about not being ready to be in a relationship….I my heart sunk to the floor….pretty much the last thing I wanted to hear…it threw me right back to E
– I was not ready for a relationship with E either when he told me….and I was okay with it…til things kept going on and I meet his best friend…his mum….step sisters….went to his work party dinner….we did all those "relationship" things…on his side…and I fell for him…and was left to get killed…since of course as he said ‘he was not ready’
– I bascially backed right off when flower dood said it….I told him I didnt want to go anymore…it was okay
– he said…you wanted to go yesterday and the day before!…I was like yah but now I know more and I change my mind…he asked if he had to get on his knees to beg…I said no 😛
– this went on for a while…he is stubborn as all hell….and bascially Tuesday it was going to be
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__________Day 3__________ lol okay apparently I can not focus on much right now but hopefully Ill get through the rest of this now
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__________Day 4__________ wow this is going well….I will add in the most recent stuff now and go back to the date hehe
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– I ended up calling flower dood on Friday night….it was his work cell so I knew he wouldnt have it on….I just said "I know this is probably wrong on every level but just wanted to say goodnight"
– Saturday -my brother and I have been playing Wii…..how fricken fun is this system? oh the joyousness of it all….and they have boxing!! I adore boxing…I think I boxed in another life….that along with being black ha!
– talk about a workout though….which is kinda sad that the "game" is a workout…but it actually is!  it did not help that it was like 35 yesterday and did not cool down much at night….anyways it was sooo much fun
– Saturday….flower dood (which I have to come up with a name for him at some point) called me like honestly 8 times….I was like um? so I called back and left a msg….he called back and I missed it…he left a msg as well…apparently couldnt hear my first msg that I left on Friday…he also commented on the fact that he called me like a million times lol….apparently he took his mum to N.F for breakfast….and was real tiredetc etc….
– SM is having issues….she didnt do well on her final….although she is taking it pretty well…had a breakdown or whatnot…but what is meant to be will be is something we both are firm believers of
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so now back to the "date"…..I left @ 4:30 and raced my butt home….since…I knew it was going to take longer to get there with all the construction going on…..and since I told him 6 would be a good time…I knew it was going to be a slight rush…..(I dislike rushing!!)
-got home round 5:15ish….he called my cell which I did not bring with me…so I called him back when I came home….left a msg (why am I leaving so many msgs?? I never do that!) anyways….he called me back…he was on his way….just had to drop off S…..
-I wore white/red/purple skirt with my white hoodie…..I was fighting showing up in jogging pants lol….which as a sidenote he brought up later on that night….it was STRANGE…because I did not mention it at all…and he was like you look adorable in your lil skirt….I thought you were going to show up in jogging pants and a sweater ….I was like *blinks* LOL okay I totally was going to….he was glad I didnt 🙂
– he came to my place to pick me up….another "never" down the drain with me….although we did compromise that I would meet him at the park…..he had to get changed from work in his car……I walked over….
– and good gawd he is pretty fit….I knew he went to the gym…but he always wears suits….he was wearing a white and blue (of course a great choice with me) shirt…and jeans…and very nice shoes….he looked very nice….to be honest though…def not my cup of tea….he is boarder line gino…with his style….but he didnt shave so that was a plus….(me n my quirks)
– anyways…we were going to dinner….he wanted me to pick ….I wanted him to pick…we drove around for a good while….I refused to pick….he finally pulled into a parking lot and we sat there…while he continued to say for me to pick….(cute moment- he took off my sunglasses (my eyes are VERY sensitive to light) he took his hands and shielded my face as we talked…..he wanted to see my eyes when we were talking)
– his eyes are brown and blue? weird colour….I thought they were brown…but they are not
– he ended up picking….muahaha……we went to Jack’s…..which I was all for especially since I get to draw on the table cloth…..*easily amused*
– I was nervous….and it showed….he kept trying to get my to relax…but then he would make some "pretty/cute/beautiful" comment and I would get uneasy….I was not ready to "talk" to him really….so he did most of the talking….and talk he did….he is very open with talking about his past stuff….which I eventually did open up and talk to him…WAY quickier than I have to anyone else….but that did not come til later
– he then suggested icecream….I was too full though…so we went to the park and were going to get icecream after…..sidenote I had salmon and veggies he has a burger and fries …he fed me one of his fries….I do not even really like fries…but it was cute..so I ate it lol  (he wouldnt let me pay *blinks*)
– his fave icecream is parlines n cream
– (cute moment- he always opened the car door and restaurant doors for me….I opened up my own door…for the restaurant- he asked if I was always this stubborn…..I said "Yep" 😛 )
– he is very gentlemanly….and it is nice although strange…since I am not really used to it…not to the extent that he is….
– we went to the park….at this point I was getting more comfy with him…..I was forgetting I was in this situation…and it was like I was talking and chilling with the guy I have talked with for a year now at work….it was becoming "normalsque" to me
– he picked a flower for me on the way to the park
– we saw bunnies on the walk!
– we ended up walking for a while…and we stopped at some rocks by the water….he helped me up and we sat down……. and more talking….
– He kept tickling me….
-he would stand up infront of me on the rocks….I went to pretend to push him in….he grabbed on to me…and I grabbed on to him….this is when he leaned in to kiss me….he pretty much missed half my face…since we were all off balance…it was really cute….I did kiss him back….but I had to stop
– that got him very nervous….I just told him it was going to quick…that plus I have been telling myself I am becoming a nun….(this kinda was not nun like….similar to me swearing infront of one ha!)
– we talked about it….and he made things better…..I stopped freaking out…..he was still standing infront of me on the rocks below….so I kneeled on the upper rocks…and that put us face to face….(he is pretty tall…around 6’2)
– so we kissed again…. 🙂  we then had to have a work talk….since….we have to be real careful here….we do work together….it was not like I was going to sleep with him or anything…but….we have to be on the same page with this…or it can turn real ugly….(sidenote another ‘never’ thing down the drain…since I went on a "date" with someone I work with)
– we would talk about going for icecream…but at this point it was getting late…and there were mosquitos…so we walked back to the car
– we chilled and made out a tad in the car……I honestly do not know why I thought this was okay…..but I was comfortable with him…..the only thing I can think of is the fact that I have known him for quite some time….cause normally I would not let anyone come anywhere near me….him….some how it happened? 
– we went back out on the street for a walk….it was now like 2 in the morning….no one was there….it was nice…..private yet public…..great combo!
– we went back to the car…he kept asking if we should go…finally I said that we should…he was tired…I wastired we had to work the next day…
– he actually drove me to my house….*blinks*…he pulled up to the next house just so that I didnt freak out too much..we said our goodbyes….and a kiss
– so it was pretty much a reallllllly long day….but I had a really good time with him
– we have planned to do something again….the next day we talked ALOT on the phone…..between him and my best friend I was pretty much on the phone from when I came home from work…until midnight it was nuts…..
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I have to go take my shower and stuff….but that is most of it….I stopped another 5 times trying to finish this….SM called….and I went to work out a tad….but my arm is killing me from playing Wii for like 8 hrs yesterday…on top of doing a hardcore workout that morning….def going to be paying for this for a day or 2….oh well
– sidenote woot to this week….cause I am on vacation for a week….as soon as it over….la la la