Love Me Not

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"Love Me Not"

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Do not profess a love for me

Your knowledge is far too shallow

Grasping at lust

Giving the rose a different name

I am sick and tired of always keeping these walls

yet the attempts to make me crumble

For others amusement can be overwhelming

Yes, some people are true

Yes, some people are honest

within these some there is even darkness

and vise versa

I have been told to give people an opportunity

and I do, regardless of their ignorance towards my chances

and they continue to insist on showing me the darkness

The lack of light drains me

The abundance of insincerity scars me

It makes me sad, it makes me smile

yet it is a cycle of loneliness

I give what I can afford

Giving more is absurd

Asking for more is ridiculous

(however people insist on doing it regardless)

I can not pretend to relate to love at first sight

my definition of love eliminates a glace equating a feeling of depth

I can twist myself to understand regardless of my belief

But my understanding does not abolish my belief

So as others giggle and smile at these words

I love you

Quite frankly it pisses me off

It irritates me for reasons of artificiality

‘you’ meaning ‘me’ encompasses my whole being

and I do not accept ignorance or games as excuses for such falsehoods

Simply, if you love ‘me’ you would have to know me…–

Sun note- I rather not get into my history to explain this piece…the hows and whys of feeling the way I do…this did come about because of certain events that transpired today…I was not impressed by someones claims towards me…which is apparently obvious…I did not even bother telling him this time…since I have already had conversations about love with this person on several occasions…and even I tire from explaining myself over and over again….I have been working on other ideas…which I will at some point post…when I have a moment…to complete a full thought…right now working on my resume…has top priority…this just came out…it happens….*shakes her head*…