Enough Is Enough

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"Enough is Enough"

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Not taken it no more

‘n aww your ego is sore

Sat back n watched your game

so I take some of the blame

Saying your honest n true

I stuck to you like glue

But don’t ever get it twisted

(without change)

It was only in due time you would be black listed

‘Cause I knew about the lies

this should be no surprise

You don’t even know yourself

baby that’s bad for your health

I did my best to help you out

My intentions were true no doubt

I let you pull me down

I admit I fell without a sound

I was aware of what was going on

It amused me for you to think I was your pawn

You let that chick suck your dick

You are the prick

Break that golden image cause it’s a joke

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e=”COLOR: navy”>Playin yourself, game is all you spoke

Foolin even yourself that this was reality

Keep holdin on to your ignorant mentality

It will be your fatality

You best grab a girl with no sense

That way she’ll have no defense

She’ll stay by your side

Ignorantly building your pride

You’ll be happy living in bliss

Cause your ass is what she will kiss

But its okay she will be stupid

She’ll thinks you’re a gift from cupid

If you are not willing to help yourself

I am not going to beat up myself

you can no longer be around me

and if this you can not see

its okay I no longer mind

I forgive you for being ignorantly unkind…..—

Sun note-….well….I am going to be graduating (hopefully) in December and this has brought about many more questions and decision in my life…..however the one issue I no longer wish to be apart of my life…is that of my first love….I have done my best to just be friends with him…however it still did not work….we fight….all the time…he is toxic to me still….it is just a disaster….I am no where close to where I was when I was with him….I did not like myself…let alone love myself…and I took more crap than anyone that knows me could ever understand….about five days ago…we were chatting on msn…and….what happens? …we got into a fight….it was over the stupidest thing….it usually is….and I honestly…stopped for a moment…looked at the puter…and…I was li

ke I am finished with this….I no longer have to put myself through this….and….I did attempt to do this on the phone since in person is out of the question…currently…he did not accept my offer….so…I went to town…I told him..this was no longer working…things have changed…and I was drainned and tired of trying to make things work….we can not be friends because we were not before…moreover…he does not make it possible…needless to say he was not happy….told me to block him from msn…told me to throw away all of his stuff here…because he no longer wanted it…and said that he was leaving to go for a walk and logged off….this was hard for me….very hard…he might ever know or think that it was…but…it hurt me….although…after I actually let a single tear fall…I was able to see things clearly….it hurt me…he was the first person I let so close to me…and I told him that I would always be there for him….this step was taking back my word…and although I told him I would not block him from msn…because I did say I would be around if he needed me…always….I told him he could block me if he wanted to….he did not….this could be seen as a problem…however….sooner or later…I will come to the point where I can see him in a different light….although he would have to change as well….it is not a strong string I hold on to at all….but as my best friend stated to me…it is not that you failed…you just changed….I understand that to a degree…however…breaking my word…although I also understand under certain circumstances it happens…or should be done…still does not sit well with me….I do not make claims to people just for the sake of it….my best in this case was not good enough….with him….that is actually okay with me at this point….because he is not good enough for me….as well…I can not have lingering ties…such as this…I am going to be moving into the next major stage of my life….lessons are to learned…not drawn out until they fade…