What a Letdown

I am depressed.

I was upbeat and positive until just before midnight on Friday.  Then I became depressed.

The Nationals were winning big and then suddenly lost the game in the top of the ninth.  The wind, the air, the joy was taken out of the stadium and depression set in.  Mrs. Ender and I both moped around the house all day Saturday and that didn’t help.  Saturday was the ninth anniversary of my dad’s death and that didn’t help.

Sunday was only slightly better.  The depression over the end of the season was lifting, but I was thinking too much about my dad.

I put off fixing the toilet–I have to replace one of the bolts that hold it to the floor and I’m replacing the guts with a flush mechanism that allows you to flush one way for liquids and another for solids–and I haven’t gotten around to doing that.  And I have all the ingredients for a big batch of goat milk soap and I really need to get that made before the goat milk goes bad.  If I have enough energy when I get home from work one night this week, I’ll make the soap.  I would work on the toilet but I don’t want to disconnect the water supply more than once, so that will have to wait until Sunday.

This weekend is homecoming at Alma Mater U. and I have a Foundation board meeting.  I’ll go up Thursday night and come home after the football game on Saturday.  The leaves should all be changing and it’s going to be a bit nippy.  I must remember to dress warmly and take add-on warm clothes.

My siblings and I are having an 80th birthday picnic for my mom on Sunday.  It occurred to me that my grandmother wasn’t much older than my mom is now when she died.  That’s a pretty depressing thought right there, but it gives me good reason to make the most of whatever time we have left together.

I don’t care a bit about the Redskins and it’s probably the first season since I was a toddler since that has been the case.  Darn you Nationals for stealing my heart and then breaking it so cruelly.

The second presidential debate is tonight and Obama better be on his game.  He can’t afford another drop in the poll like the one caused by the last debate.

I can’t think of anything else right now.

Ender is out.