Nightmare

I had this freaky dream last night that was SO REAL that I could feel myself saying "am I still dreaming or is this really happening???" I mean, I could actually feel this guys hands around my throat…it was insane. So I decided, since it’s bothering me a little, to go to a dream interpretation site and see what it says about my dream. First, here’s the dream.

For some reason me and my bestfriend are admitted to a mental hospital (I don’t know why). At some point we manage to esape from the hospital and begin walking down the downtown streets. We finally find an alleyway that we think we can hide in and get some sleep…we walk through it and end up in a backyard shared by 2 houses. At this point, somehow, my car has ended up there (makes no sense since we were walking, but whatever). So me and my bestfriend climb into the front seat and fall asleep. I remember waking up to see an older model pickup truck pull into the driveway of the house next to us and I remember thinking that us sleeping in the car in THIS area is not a safe thing. The next thing I remember I woke up w/ a large male (large as in tall and it seemed like he weighed a ton even though he was thin) on top of me. He was saying something (I don’t remember exactly what) about how he had wanted my bestfriend but I would do. His hands were around my neck and he was choking me. I kept yelling and kicking and I was scratching his neck over and over and over again b/c I kept thinking that I needed to have his skin under my fingernails in case he kills me. It seemed like forever that I was trying to fight him off and, at some point, I finally thought to myself "oh my God, am I still dreaming or is this REALLY happening to me???" I woke up shortly after that and I was disoriented enough to wonder why it was still dark outside. Then I got my bearings, sat up, and breathed a sigh of relief that it was all just a dream.

And here’s what the dream interpretation website says about a dream like this.

Rape
To dream that you have been raped, suggests a sadistic expression of sexual desire. You may be expressing an unconscious desire to be violated, conquered, or forced into forbidden territory. It also indicates vengeful feelings toward the opposite sex. Alternatively, it suggests that you are feeling violated in some way. Something or someone is jeopardizing your self-esteem and emotional well-being. Dreams of rape are also common for those who were actually raped in their waking life.

To see a rape being committed in your dream, denotes sexual dysfunction or uncertainty.

Asylum
To dream that you are at an asylum, suggests that you are feeling tremendous mental strain and are trying to reach out for help. You are acknowledging your need for help.

Hospital
To see a hospital in your dream, symbolizes your need to heal or improve your physical or mental heath. You need to get back to the flow of everyday life.

So, ummm, yeah…according to this website I’m apparently got some serious problems going on in my head right now. I really don’t think any of the interpretations apply to me, though. I’ve never been mentally fragile, I don’t feel that I’ve been violated, I’ve never been the victim of a sexual assault in real life, and I’m certainly not VENGEFUL towards men. So maybe I’ll just chalk it up to a very vivid nightmare. Well that AND make double sure all of my doors and windows are locked when I go to sleep.