Jack’s inflamed sense of Mistrust

What is it that Alice said? “I give myself very good advice, but i very seldom follow it. Be Patient is very good advice, but the waiting make me curious.”

Alice and i. She wandered into herself and found a way to grow up. i am going to see what i find. Like i said, it’s dark and scary under the shell. . . but i think it is time to go in there again.

i need alone time now.

Inside every thing i find that i trust nothing. i am open with people, but i find that i do not want to allow the giving of myself. Giving myself and giving my trust means being vunerable to pain and hurt and general Malaise.

There is so much responsibility in trusting someone. Too much maybe. i should have thought of that sooner.

But it is the morning of this, and sometimes the light of dawn casts shadows that fade or that fool. i’ll wait until at least pre-twilight to see.

To see.