Been a while.

 It has been a while since I bothered to keep a journal online. As most who kept a diary on MDD know, it is down. I don’t like Live Journal so much anymore. There hasn’t been much action on that site the last few times I was there. 

I picked the puzzle background for my journal because that is how I feel my life is right now. One big puzzle with no answers written in the sky that I am somehow supposed to try to figure out or make sense of. Every time I feel like I am ready to pick up the pieces and move on to make my life better, something inside me drags me down again. Before anyone suggests it, I have tried therapy and meds. Therapy helps, but doesn’t really solve any of the problems I have. Meds just make me feel worse than I do already. I know it is my job to solve my problems, but I just don’t know how. I will go into  more detail after I have lurked a bit on the site, to test whether I am comfortable sharing here or not. 

I know there are people with much worse problems than mine. However, to me all problems are real and valid, no matter how big or small they may seem to someone else. 

If you enjoy my journal, that is fine, if you don’t, there are plenty of other journals to read. Have a nice day everyone!