Permission

Gave myself permission to eat some normal food today (including toast).

Now I feel like I need to be punished. Feeling normal and okay and deserving is so foreign. I need to feel punished.

I wish I could break this cycle.

(Kelly you are now unblocked. I’m sorry.)

Goodluck hun…..

HiiS D0lLfaCe

January 3, 2006

Hey Sweetie. I would love to learn more about you. Comment me. <3 _KIrstin-

the battle continues

January 3, 2006

*hugz*

tromploeil

January 4, 2006

or you need to feel that you’re a decent, wonderful person (which, of course, you are). i hope the toast was french sourdough.

Its ok, I understand. x

girl in the flock

January 5, 2006

xoxo

northern skies.

January 5, 2006

i’m glad you let yourself eat. i wish you felt like you deserved it & didn’t have to compensate for it. ryn: i started seeing her 2 years ago (for cutting/depression). then went travelling for summer, started purging/restricting, decided i didn’t want to get better, & spent over a year getting worse before i went back. i don’t think i’m being mature – it’s more like ‘brick wall syndrome’. numb.

tromploeil

January 6, 2006

ryn: i would be happy to send off a postcard: there are landscapes that are beautiful, especially from south carolina, and there are landmarks and desert scenes.