Not so well
Things are not so good. The monster has awoken and I am battling the food demons. I feel out of control and needing to self-harm even more. I feel misunderstood by the people closest to me (I DO know it’s hard for them) and I feel utter demise and despair at NOT knowing how to make things better.
I feel like a fraud for writing more, or for even admitting I’d like to go IP. My weight is low, but not dangerously low. I feel too big to be admitted to an ED clinic, and I feel too pathetic to be admitted to a psych ward. Sigh, I don’t know. I’d really like to go to a private ED hospital as I actually have insurance now (and so I COULD go with no problem on the money front). Just many problems on the family/social front.
I need advice. I need to see my doctor. He has been away for 2 weeks, I really need to see him. I see him on Tuesday.
Damien goes away on a business trip tomorrow (Sunday) until Friday. 5 days away. I will cope somehow.
Elizabeth
*hugs* hang in there. Maybe your doctor can help you somehow.
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Gee, that is a long time alone, with Sofie I presume. RE- IP, ring the newfarm clinic, they are the best we have now since BF is gone. The wait list may be while for IP so try and organise it now if you can. You are not too fat, or pathetic, only showing courage and strength for admitting things can change for the better and wanting to do so. Kel x
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take care. i don’t no what to say. wish i could offer something more than just my love and support.
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*hugs* i’m worried about you, hun. you already know what i think so i won’t repeat myself. no one ever said it was going to be easy. please get some help.
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I’ll keep u in my prayers hun,,wish i new what to say or do..Sorry..But i give you my best….Smile….{{{{HUGS}}}}
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I think that you should be in-patient. You aren’t too heavy – you KNOW that. It will give you time to reflect and re-assess your situation and it will take the pressure off of Damien for a while. You need to do what is best for you Elizabeth, and I just can’t see this situation resolving itself without intense therapy/hospitalisation
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