The day my hope began

 Ludovico – Divenire
The moment I walked into Marketing was the day my future began. How little did I know the beginning chapters of my life, hope were about to take flight. The sinking feeling of depression waved over me as in the distance my Lord smiles at me of knowing the start of what I will see. I had no idea God knew I was ready. He knew it was time. My God has the same contentment and still sadness as those who know letting the one you love go for their future to go on. For their life to continue instead of your own. Letting go of something you find so dear. The distance watch of your love happiness with out you. Is exactly the way the story should play out. From a far you watch in stillness alone in happy contentment watching, absorbing every move and suddle gesture is the essence that you cannot capture the way you loved them, the one you shared your heart, love that forever changed you. As the seconds pass with them not knowing your gaze the wind blows your hair as you continue to stare. Their contentment is your contentment. You have done your job, their novels chapter with out is done, and they are better off with out you. Your cheek begins to smile at the rushing thoughts of them at once for you know…its better this way. This is the way my Lord gases at me with love so sacrificial he cannot tell me what love is about to take place I would not believe.  I walk though the doors of my soon to be home, little do I realize how long I will be there. I told God and myself I will be here for but I moment in time, a blink of an eye and I distant memory. Discussed with myself and why I even bothered coming, the only glimpse of hope in having a future I suppose. As I walk though the doors a face that will move in the direction of my journey, little does she know how hand chosen she was for me. My dear friend to be, the sweetness and most vulnerable heart. Is proud to say that in another life we were already best friends. She would be my only friend at this beginning journey with God.