Blissed Out

It’s the holidays, and you can tell just from walking around for a while – Christmas decorations and festive lights up everywhere, lighting up the night.  This year I’m trying not to be cynical about the materialism of the holiday and just relaxing and appreciating the spirit of the season, as it’s meant to be.  In my own way, in my own heart, I’m feeling the peace and joy of Christmas.

Last night I spent time with one of my lovers after she returned from Mexico, leaving her partner there for another 2 weeks, giving us a chance to reconnect.  We spent the night (or what was left of it after the afterparty at her place) talking and fooling around, and then spent the day in bed all day today too – I left her place at 5:30pm and she gave me a ride home.  Spending time with her can give me this really intense feeling of euphoria.  She’s like a drug, in so many ways – makes me feel good, makes me happy, but can be damaging to my health and sanity when taken in large doses.

Tonight I’m spending time with my other lover, my little puppy.  He’s back from school after his finals this week and he’ll be in town for about a month before he has to go back.  We haven’t spent more than a week in the same city since the summer, and I haven’t seen him in 2 weeks (he was in town for a weekend to volunteer for a show I was bartending at).  We’re going to have dinner at a friend’s place, and then heading out to have some fun for the night (possibly with the previously mentioned lover as well).

Right now I’m between bliss and bliss.  I’m happy, I’m contented, I’m loved, I’m laid, and I’m intensely satisfied with my place in life and in this universe.  I’m so in bliss that I decided to write this entry rather than checking any email, reading any news, or looking at updates on forums I post on – I’d rather just feel this intensely good feeling a little longer.

My back is incredibly tense from the amounts of stress and pressure I’m under these days, but I haven’t felt this good in a while.