Review of Date

First…I’m purposely avoiding school talk because I have no answers yet. I have to find my syllabus and submit it Monday morning to Anthroplogy. I don’t wanna think about it, I will freak out.

Max is…god I don’t even know. Awesome and smart and funny and a bit rough around the edges…but an insanely affectionate person. Again…it ended up being very eagar. I guess I should explain that from the moment I got there, it didn’t feel like a first date. We were so instantly comfortable…it felt like minimum of date 10. Kissing and cuddling, no awkwardness. Kinda amazing. Lots of attraction and giggling, we just laid around kissing and talking for like three hours. Finally left to go to dinner, had margaritas and mexican. We were going to go to a blues club, but he asked if I’d be alright with staying in and talking more. We laid around, he started drinking more wine, we watched Star Trek…yup he’s a super nerd. But then it got weird. He really wanted me to stay over. We’d already talked about no sex, no fooling around, but it was late and he didn’t want me driving home. Thats when I started getting really uncomfortable. He started getting super cuddly, almost suffocating, calling me honey and baby, not letting me turn away. I started freaking out. He also started talking about how I could trust him, he was amazed by me, and that he was so eager to be with me. I needed to breathe, to cool down, so I told him I was leaving. He kinda…freaked out. Not scary but like sad and upset and kept trying to pull me back to his bed. I just feel like it was all…a bit much. But I still really liked him.

Idk my head is all confused.

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I don’t know what to say, jumping from one guy to the other when you aren’t really sure what you want may get you hurt. Hope you’ve talked to Andy.

November 5, 2012