17 Again

Kinda feeling a bit like high school. Two reasons. Well one cause, two effects. I have met someone. Someone who is my boyfriend. You are all going to crack up. I swear, it isn’t on purpose. But his name is Chris. YUP! Another one.

Anywho, I didn’t really "meet" him recently, we’ve known each other for years actually. I grew up doing theatre, and his best friend is one of my great friends from that children’s theatre group. So we’ve met on and off for years, he’s been to my house a few times with friends, he’s dated some of our mutual friends in high school lol. The last few times we’ve run into each other we’ve flirted a lot. It’s kinda just the way theatre people are, so I never thought anything of it. Well the past week we’ve been around each other a lot do to friends having parties. He started flirting a lot, and after talking a little bit, he got blunt and was like I want to date you, I’ve had a crush on you for a long time and never thought you’d look twice at a guy like me (omg he’s crazy, see *). So, I agreed to go on a date with him. Which was Saturday. It was amazing.

He makes me very quietly happy. And he’s okay about moving slow. Which is one effect why I feel 17. I’m at my heaviest, my least comfortable in my body, and he thinks I’m sexy. And this is at the most amazing time. I’ve been feeling a lot more comfortable being single, loving my insides a lot. He likes them too 🙂 We’ll see where this goes.

The down side? My friend/facebook wife is FURIOUS. I was pretty blindsided. Fact, she’d slept with him casually for a few weeks a year ago. It ended, they became just friends again. The casual sex was mutual and understood it didn’t mean anything. I didn’t really know him and/or really interested then, and she told me it was cool, they were friends, it was over and she didn’t mind at all. Well apparently she’s been lying to a lot of us this whole year. Day one she saw him flirting with me, she laughed and encouraged me to go for it. Day two, she totally was trying to push me to talk to him. Day three…she got drunk on her birthday, made an inappropriate comment about me hitting on her leftovers and that I was being rude. Pot, this is kettle. You’re black. She’s hit on ALL of my boyfriends, while I was dating them. And it’s just banter. I honestly didn’t realize he was even actually interested in me. I thought it was just a joke. Well then we talked, and she said she was uncomfortable seeing it, as it hurt her pride since it used to be her and he moved on. Truthfully, so did she, at least physically, but she’s single now. She asked me to not flirt in front of her, which I was like, oh sure! absolutely…but she wouldn’t drop it. She just started word vomiting about, why you? Why isn’t it me? I mean, he only wants you for sex, cause you have big boobs. It was getting really hurtful upsetting. That he’s just a manwhore and going to use me for sex and drop me, and she didn’t want me to get hurt. She then said, well it’d be fine if you were like dating, but not just sex. LIAR. I started getting a weird vibe then. The next day I saw him again at another party, it was like 5 in a row, and I made sure we didn’t even touch aside for the normal hug hello that everyone got. She watched us like a hawk.  AWKWARD. Basically she had decided she had dibs, which she also said about our friend Brian…who she dated in GRADE SCHOOL, but she was making HORRIBLE comments about his newly ex girlfriend  telling her she wouldn’t understand why it ended.  Back to Chris and the end of the last party: He walked me to my car carrying all my huge Pampered Chef stuff, kissed me goodbye really quickly and then I left. She texted me a winky face and asked how the goodbye was. I said she better be teasing me, it was embarrassing, and it wasn’t really anything. She laughed and we went on chatting. She then went away on a mini vaca, and Chris and I had our first alone date. It was sweet.

This is when I get confused. And legit. Not sure how this is coming across, but all my friends in the situation agree this is out of nowhere, and this is crazy. I talked to a mutual female friend about Colleen to check if I was reading the signs wrong, if she was more upset than she was saying, and if I was in the wrong. Said friend said no, that it seemed like just normal girl petty little pride thing, and if she didn’t have to see it, she’d be fine very soon! Well once he asked me out, I decided I should talk to her and let her know in person. Well instead she found out by reading said friend’s text, FLIPPED OUT, called another friend and I don’t know what was said, nor do I want to, but it is EPIC high school drama. Chris is super confused and mad at her. I’m mad too, but not at all for the same reason. She was so teasing and pushy forward at first, and only sort of hinted it was odd for her. We’ve been friends for years, and she’s never had an issue being honest. Had she said night one it made her uncomfortable, I wouldn’t have started talking to him, which led to liking him. But she was so like, omg he’s such a good guy (insert other icky graphic comments I was mortified by), you should go for it. Seriously, if you like him, you should go make out. You two need alone time? Like seriously. You shouldn’t have to lie to me, and I’m a bad psychic!

She and I were supposed to meet at a party, and she bailed because he was randomly showing up too. That she didn’t think she could handle it, and I’m terrible for thinking I could talk to her about this there. Well, I didn’t realize she’d be really upset if she knew it wasn’t just sex, or that she had feelings for him! Way before this even started she said she didn’t! WTF, WHY?!? I thought we’d just not be PDA -tastic in front of her, and she’d meet a guy to flirt with and everything would be fine! Also, I so wasn’t going to talk to her in front of everyone! We’d go somewhere afterwards or at least outside alone. We are meeting Tuesday night to talk. Part of me feels terrible, part of me is very happy, another part sad, because Colleen and I haven’t been close for a while, and I was hoping to fix that this summer, and part of me is pissed. Her running line is, why would he like you? And random comments about how he doesn’t like blonds or girls who are fat. So…ugh.

Moving on, life is slowly turning up. Applying for new jobs, having fun with friends. Sorry, that seems like a drama dump. But, it’s not that bad, just wanted to write it out. Life will be good. I really need to sign up at a gym.

*Dude. Really? He’s like 5’7, light brown curly hair, beautiful blue grey eyes, graduated with a degree in environmental engineering, and has the hottest abs I’ve ever seen. He’s like nothing but slim muscle, as he plays ultimate frisbee and rides bikes. He thinks "girls like me"  which he calls gorgeous and funny and smart and amazingly awesome, should like super tall, thick bearded guys who weigh like 250. Don’t get me wrong, some of them are hot too, but…I feel like Chris doesn’t look in a mirror…cause like…yum.