unable.

Good news? All of my bills are paid for October, except the $11 for health insurance stuff.

Bad news? At the moment I don’t have enough money to pay November’s rent.

*closes eyes*

By this time next week, I will have enough to pay rent. But only just barely.

Do I not work hard enough? Do I spend too much on frivilous things (like, ya know, gas and cat food)?

I don’t understand.

I guess I do. I mean. I didn’t NEED a desk. Tho that doesn’t altogether count, since it went on my credit card and not out of my checking account, so even if I *hadn’t* bought it, I’d still not have enough.

I feel like I just need to get up and walk outside and keep walking.

I feel….dizzy.