honeymoon
Yesterday at work was….difficult.
Ended up calling L to come in AND Growlie’s mom.
Today was better, tho there was an incident in the library where I had to call the classroom teacher to come help me get Growlie back to the room. But all’s well that ends well. Or something.
I’ve been doing ok, emotionally for a little while. But tonite. I dunno. I was watching a movie- Lost in Translation and suddenly I just…had the biggest urge to cut. I haven’t, yet.
But. I just.
I hurt.
And I wanna call write J but I don’t feel I should. And I feel like I should be back in therapy but I dunno.
I wish this dumb movie was over so I could go to bed. Even tho it’s only 740pm.
don’t wanna hurt.
*sigh*
write her… go back to therapy *hugs* i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you.
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Turn off the dumb movie. It wasn’t that good anyway. Stuff happens. The end.
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Write it out, if you can. And remember to keep breathing. Thinking of you.
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was it a triggering movie? i haven’t seen it. i don’t want you to hurt either… *~
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Indeed, follow your heart and write J…and do go back to therapy… *hugs* too…
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