updating for the holidays

okay okay, i’m updating for those of you who wanted me to update. just that its easier to one place rather than a few. anywho, my holidays were good, can’t really complain. been working like crazy the last few weeks, so the money is rolling in, which is good for tuition and all. i haven’t really hung out with anybody since like who knows when. the other night i walked an extra mile for no reason, because i told my mom to just dropped me off at borders and all, and then when i was done there, i walked, and its about 15 minutes from my house, driving time. i almost made it home, but my mom freaked out when she found out i was walking. i just needed time and space from people. people are weird anymore. i just come to accept that i have become completely distant, and if and when, i wanted to go back, it would be too awkward. it’s not fair, but i allow the time to go by without anything. i don’t know where i stand in life. just got so many doubts in my mind anymore about everything. nothing seems to be going right, i swear. one thing goes down, the rest follow. i just hope this new year brings nothing but goodness and just alot more out of things i do than last year. because i just feel like it was such a waste, the last year. well hooary for 2004!