Harder to Breathe

Wow, what an upside down, crazy day I had today. Wednesday was the day I got to hang out with that new kid I met from Warped Tour. We been talking like crazy and I def knew I liked him and all. I was so grateful that my friend, Cait was able to pick him up where he lives like an hour away and everything.
Lauren and Cait picked me up around 12:30 ..half an hour after we were supposed to go because they went to the bank and to Wendys. We got the road and no traffic, it was all looking good. Of course, any journey when Cait is driving is always an adventure. We, of course get lost, and missed exits and what not. I couldn’t help that one, you know. But I’m sure I will have my shares of them when I drive as well.
We picked him around 2ish I guess and as soon as he came out and into the car, I just had no vibes for this kid then I thought when I was constantly talking to him online. Also, the night before, I was on the phone with my ex, Steve and he was really upset that I moved on and I liked someone else and he wished that he didn’t messed things up and what not. Plus, since hanging out last, his feelings have grown more for me. That really made me worry about him, because he was really upset about the whole situation.
We get to Philly okay, of course missing only one exit at once. It was pretty nice that we got a spot like practically on South St. which is hard to do because of how compact and crowded it can get. Cait and I wanted to get tickets for the Starting Line who are coming to the Electric Factory in October. It wasn’t crowded at all for once. It was extremely hot and didn’t help I wasn’t feeling well to begin with.
We checked out the normal stores and got some food. Aaron Carter was playing at TLA, which that in inside, a joke. There were too many teenyboppers on the side street near TLA, it was just sickening. Of course they weren’t selling tickets for Starting Line until Sept. 5 or something, so we gotta wait alittle bit more. So in a way, there was no reason to be down there.
On the way back to dropped him off is when thing went insane. We went the completely opposite way of where we were supposed to be going. We headed closer to Croyden and Northeast Philly. So we had to go all the way back from where we started at and then dropping him off wasn’t too bad after that. Seem to be forever because the whole time he was trying to make a move on me. I was not showing the body language of wanting to be really near him, just wasn’t feeling it at all and felt bad at the same time. I know he did want to kiss me, but my mind was all on Steve.
I called him too as soon as we drove off from Kev’s house. I think he was little upset that I hung out with him but sounded relief that nothing happen with us. He did want to hang out with me and I was happy that I was able to see him too. We drove a bit and got completely lost and there was mad traffic everywhere. We drove up and down random streets not having a clue where we were at. Cait wasn’t liking this at all. Didn’t help that she was the only one really that could drive. We were able to find Cherry Hill Mall and got some dinner at Friendlys. As soon as we got on the road, we got home in no time. There was a scary crazy guy who kinda stalked us down on 95 coming home. He kept on signaling the jerk off sign, but I really think he was. He was really nasty and just was a horrible sight and made that day even worse.
I was lucky to get dropped off at my friend’s house where Steve was already at. I was completely exhausted, look like crap and my back was killing me. Steve said he would give me one and I was shocked that would for me. He did for a bit and then gave me a hug. I was really surprised aboutthat as well because the past couple of days he’s been like in that smart-ass attitude. They were watching a crazy-ass movie so I went on his laptop and wrote a journal entry for my Public Journal on blurty. He was out there with me and just kept giving me kisses and what not. It was soo sweet. He read my journal and felt the same, he wouldn’t let go of me. It was seriously the best feeling.
Paul went outside with Cait because they needed to talk and no they don’t go out. We were just cuddling and he kept saying how amaizng that felt and how stupid he was for ruining such agood thing and what. It was just an amaizng night, we aren’t going out, but everything feels so new and he did mention how those feelings are coming back and what not. So god only knows …what an amazing night to end a crazy day.
Oh yeah, Cait after leaving Paul came home and online, I talked to her for a bit and I wasn’t really thinking when talking about how great of a night I had and she blamed me for such a crappy day. I understand that her night wasn’t amazing with Paul and esp. the day with everything, but I think it’s all building up for her. I just hope that college is amazing expereince for her, she’s leaving in a week. 🙂
Finally I’m done.
Mare