What’s the point, anymore?
I’ve decided that I should suffer, so I unblocked everything. It worked, and I’m suffering. I think I deserve this. I mean, if what goes around comes around, and I’m wrong, then the universe is doing it wrong. More likely, it was me all along, and now, this is what I have to suffer. Somehow, I was just wrong about everything. I want to say I feel like dying, but I don’t want to deal with the worry it would produce. I don’t even feel good about training for a 5K, anymore. It’s already been done by him on multiple occasions. It’s not my own…it just makes me look creepy, doing the same thing. I sort of just wish he didn’t exist… This will haunt me for the rest of my life, as it should. It’s punishment for being a shit girlfriend.
Good thing I have a major exam, tomorrow.
I honestly do not think you were a shit girlfriend. I think you gave all your could in a difficult period of your life and he wasn’t willing to meet you halfway. Some of the things he did were downright unacceptable, regardless of the challenges of a long-distance relationship. You are amazing in so many ways and deserve a man who accepts you as you are and wants to help you reach your…
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…dreams. I know you’re hurting but try not to let that interfere with what you’re doing now. ::hugs:: I wish I could lend you Stanley for a puppy snuggle. He helps almost every situation 🙂
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I don’t know the whole story (or any of it really), but I really hope you feel better.
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*huge hugs* I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. 🙁
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RYN: I’m honestly way too young to be worrying about such things, but the family I was born into kinda sucks so I’m anxious to start a new one.
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