Where to start….

So it has been awhile but here goes….

So last weekend I went to the Broncos-Bengals game with N and his parents.  We then stayed Sunday night in this cabin by the river — gorgeous place.  It was fun..a good time.  N kept thanking me for going … over and over.  It was sweet but a bit much.

So then we get back home.  J is gone for the week so we have the place to ourselves.  Monday night we went out and had a couple drinks and some wings….here is where it gets bad.  So we were talking and talking about people with bad teeth..either none or nasty looking ones.  I made the mistake of saying I used to date a guy with horrible teeth and when people asked I said it was because he had skills.  My brain should have triggered that it was something I shouldn’t say but my mouth went too fast.

Anyway….we get home…we are messing around…N gets upset because he can’t get me off…has never.  I tried to tell him that only like 2 people ever had and it took them awhile before they did.  He wants to know what does it for me and I have a helluva time talking about me in those circumstances.  I don’t know what to do.  Then he said he felt bad because I said the guy had skills and he feels like he doesn’t have any.  He said he has never had this problem – he always makes sure the girl gets hers first and he feels selfish for not taking care of me.  I was crying because I felt so bad for making him feel so bad.

So last night we went out and had some drinks.  I had a bad day at work – we were supposed to go to the movies but I wasn’t feeling it…I wanted something to drink!  So I got a little tipsy – not drunk, just feeling good.  I was trying to get him in bed..had plans to tell him what I liked but he was being all pissy.  Said he still wasn’t over the skills comment.  So I was like fine and got ready for bed and went to sleep.  Keep in mind there was a little time between these events so I wasn’t really talking to him during it….I was really pissed actually.  I told him I was going to give him the chance to get over it but he destroyed that lol.

So we aren’t really fighting….we have had a couple of little snip moments…but I still wouldn’t trade him for anyone else.  He still makes me smile and laugh.  Tells me I am beautiful…tells me all the great things about me…..I mean come on ….. how can I not love that 😛

So since he doesn’t check his email, I guess I will have to type him a facebook message and lay it out there…don’t ask me why but I cannot discuss that shit face to face.