Well Monday is almost done…

Still have not heard about the one job that I am pretty sure I should have.  Seriously, if I don’t get that job I am not sure what I am going to do…it should have been a shoe in.  They are hiring a ton of people so how bad would I have had to screw up for them not to offer it to me.  I am not freaked out yet…

Because tomorrow I go in to talk to someone about another job.  I am not positive that they are going to be offering me a job but really most signs point to it.  I am filling in teaching a class on Wednesday and they have a couple more next week….but I would prefer to teach them as an employee instead of a contractor.  He just asked if I could come in and speak with him the day before (which is tomorrow) and we set a time.  I am taking a resume with me and plan on making my pitch for the job.  As much as part of me doesn’t want it, the part of me that takes care of the bills know that the money related stress would be a lot less if I took that job instead of the first one.

My contract that is ending this week had left me not really caring.  I know they are going to have a helluva time when I am gone – I mean I can’t teach someone 12 years worth of stuff in a few days (and I won’t get to talk to them at all this week because they are our of town)…but I am adapting the ‘not my circus, not my monkeys’ mentality pretty quickly.  I hate this job…I used to like it but it turned into dreary routine work that I didn’t have (and couldn’t get) the answers for the questions that popped up.  I am sick of working from home and being isolated. I need to associate with people again.

That being said, I am really hoping I don’t go in tomorrow and they just string me along.  I want an answer and I want it fast.  This waiting is killing me and my brain just keeps thinking about the lack of money that is approaching quickly.  I loaned my mother my emergency fund and won’t get it back until her tax refund comes in – granted that should be within a couple weeks but damn…it is scary.  I don’t want to be living off my credit cards.  I just needed to type that out…I need to vent and this is the safest place to do it.