Still dreaming…

Well things are going sickening well.

Picked up N from work last night. Came home, had some drinks, had some chips and cheese dip..J had built a fire in the fire pit earlier so kept it going after she went to bed. We sat out by the fire until almost 3 am just talking. He once again was talking about how in love his parents are and he always said he wasn’t getting married until he found it. I said well you have been engaged once – his reply was but I didn’t get married did I? lol

Of course I had to follow that with do you see us like your mom and dad? He asked if I saw us being together for a long time. Honestly I replied that I can’t imagine life without him.

So we were discussing the if I was pregnant situation (I am still 99% sure I am not but still). He said if I was, it would be a great thing and that he wanted to be with me forever. yes it was one of those mushy conversations.

As much as I don’t want a baby, it would be a blessing. I always said God is the only reason I haven’t gotten pregnant before….I spent 7 years with the ex – never used any birth control. Haven’t used any with the others I have dated and have never been pregnant. I don’t know…apparently he or karma finally decided I needed the perfect man for me and gave him to me. We will see if they decide I need a baby — I don’t think I do. Someone asked me one time what I would do if I got pregnant — I looked at them and said "Have a baby" — duh! Seriously..at 37 do you really think I would give a baby up for adoption? And while I am pro-choice, I could never have an abortion myself.

So that’s all for now…once I take a test, I will update 😛