So much sadness…

I keep reading peoples posts about how much their lives suck…..how nobody appreciates them….how they would be better off dead….how they are jealous of people who are "brave" enough to commit suicide….

These are people with wives or kids or other people who LOVE them. I just want to smack them.

I know I know….Depression is real. It runs in my family…I get it. I have gone through some low points in my life but it never occurred to me to end it….because what the hell would that do to my mother. I mean really….often when my life sucked, it was because I was always thinking about other people and not myself…even when it comes to killing myself, I think what it would do to others.

I am in a good place in my life. I have not had the ideal life but think I have been fairly lucky in my life. There are times when I thought if something happened to me – no one would even notice or care….nobody would show at my funeral.

But I have learned there are people who care about me. I have found a man who loves me even when I am being an uber bitch and I love him even though he drives me nuts sometimes. 

There has been so much death on tv lately. Tornadoes, men attacking soldiers in England, earthquakes – it is horrible. It should make you appreciate everything you have. Your kids are driving you nuts?  Enjoy them – they could have been killed while at school or walking home…. Your broke?  Do you have food and a roof over your head?… You live in your car? So what – at least you have a car…. Your wife is being a bitch…well you married her. There is probably a reason for it. Your husband is being an ass…..same thing. I have actually met people who are legitimately bitches..and losers….and people that your life would be better off without anyway…so let them go.

I have always been good at finding the good side of things….I can almost always see the other side. I used to get in trouble because I always tried to give the other side of a situation. I have been accused of always being on the other side but really, I just like to see the big picture. I also have a huge bubble of denial that is pretty strong…sucks on the occasions it bursts and forces me to face reality.

I don’t really know what my point is…probably I am just tired of people feeling sorry for themselves. If you don’t like your life, quit makeing excuses and change it.