How things change…

So Lasik Thursday went fine. Ended up having N drive me. I was only there like an hour so then he drove me home. I slept a couple hours like I was supposed to…got up and went to have margaritas with J and our friend MC. MC had never been in a bar so after the Mexican restaurant, we took her to my little hole in the wall bar lol. It was all good but she had to leave to get her daughter. J didn’t want to go so I told MC to leave us there. I had N come pick us up when he got off work. By this time, J was wasted. We went, dropped N off at his place and I drove home — lots of halos around lights and couldn’t read street signs but I drove ok 😛

Friday went well….had lots of errands..follow up to the Lasik, oil change, drop off / pick up phone to be fixed, meet with the insurance agent, dinner with K and his mom/brother. Then home to chill.

OK So Saturday we went to the crazy funeral for J’s husband that killed himself — his family – on both sides – are bat shit crazy. Nothing totally out of line happened but his mom’s side of the family and his hoes — excuse me young girls he was dating – were totally disrespectful of her. I was proud of her though…she handled herself very well.

Went to the racetrack with K to watch the horse race. She didn’t do very well because she is in a harder class this time and they out ran her. It was the last race of the night. Was going to go see N afterwards but I was tired and ended up going to bed to sleep.

Sunday I spent the entire day with N. We went and had food and drinks. Had a blast. Went to the liquor store and grocery store. Then went back to his place…drank some more, cooked some food….I was drunk off my ass by 8. By 10:30 I sent K a message that said good night and went to bed…..

But before going to bed….ok so we were at N’s place. We were cooking stuff for tacos and had rented a movie. Was going to sit and watch the movie with his roommate. His roommate came home in a foul mood cause he had been fighting with his girlfriend all day. We ended up packing up the food to leave. the roommate came in and started mouthing off – him and N got into it — like bad enough I thought they might go to blows. So N grabbed his laundry and the food and his dog and we left. on the way out the roommate demanded his key so N gave it to him……

Result of the story? J and I now have a new housemate and I have a new roommate. I really like N. He has cooked me breakfast each morning before work. He has cooked us dinner….he loves cooking. Him and J’s 4yr old son had a blast running around the house shooting guns. N is ADD….he is hyper as hell and Spencer loves having someone to play with lol. We have had a great time….it’s a little surreal that he is now living with me.

So real result of the story is I had to break up with K. It took me until Tuesday night to work up the nerve but I did it. He is a little shell shocked…he was expecting us to have a little fight – not break up. He kept asking why….I gave him reasons but he wasn’t buying it. He said that I wasn’t even trying — it has only been 2 MONTHS — I shouldn’t have to try. We should have been in the giddy rainbows stage and we weren’t. I told him I didn’t love him. Told him I wanted to and I tried but I had been trying to live the fairy tale instead of the reality. He just kept pushing — came really close to telling him there was someone else but I didn’t.

So got rid of the boyfriend and moved in the other man….yep I am a winner. With N it is almost like Fate — yes that sounds cheesy but there were all these times neither of us was supposed to be somewhere that we both showed up…we had this instant connection…we are so much alike. He met one of the people from work for 5 minutes before my lasik and they said he was the male version of me – lol. So now I am back to trying to decide where we are going…right now I am just enjoying it and chilling out.