Glad it’s back
I tried using another site but it just wasn’t the same. I loved Open Diary…and am really glad to be writing again.
I can really use a place to vent and just type stuff out….
So much has changed since the last entries…I got married to N. ( which those entries of the story of us haven’t finished restoring yet) We moved, we moved again and the we moved cross country. He got a great raise. We bought a house. My long time work from home gig (that had been my main job for the last 5 years) is ending….so I am scrambling to find another.
That being said, just interviewed for a job that pays less but looks to have great benefits. It is also a complete change from what I have been doing so it would be a nice challenge. And of course, as soon as that happens, a sorta friend of mine quit his job. His job then called me to fill in teaching for him..no biggie. I am concerned they are going to offer me a job – and it is basically doing a lot of the same crap I have been doing for over 12 years..sooo boring. The money would be better but the office environment is so drab. It is an office of almost all women (and I hate working with women). It is very dark. It is in a crappy part of town and the drive would suck. On the flip side, it is M-F (where the other one will be a varying schedule 7 days a week), holidays off, benefits (but not quite as good as the other one), and did I mention the money would be better. The other down side is that I think it involves things I am not that great at – like maintaining all the computers, etc in the building. I am a software girl – not hardware. I hate networking. But if they pay me what I would ask them for, I would find it hard to say no.
So basically my stomach is tore all up because I am stressed. I haven’t heard about the first job yet – on one hand I hope I don’t, on the other I hope i do so I KNOW I have somewhere to go….I have bills to pay and of course the work from home job had to decide to end just after we bought a house. Actually that is a blessing because if it ended before, we would have waited until I had a year of work behind me again or whatever before we could have gotten financed and then the prices would have gone up so much, we would have ended up in a crappy part of town instead of this awesome little neighborhood we are in now.
OK…I feel a little better….just needed to type it out. My hubby says he will support whatever I decide but is of course pushing me towards more money. He has no sympathy that I don’t want to work there because he hates the environment he works in lol
We’re glad too, welcome back!
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I’m just sick in bed, and reading random diaries. Congrats on the wedding and house! I also got married to the guy I was dating when OD was down. Haha.
To me, the work thing is: wherever I feel the best is where I go. Of course money is a thing, but unless it doesn’t pay enough for my bills, I don’t choose a job based on pay, but one that I know will give me the lifestyle I want. I am mostly a free spirit (thus the name), but I’ve noticed that I need stability in work, so to me, the M-F would be more enticing. I like to have a routine, and be able to plan things, like know when I’m working and how much I’ll make. But that’s just me. I’m an artist who needs that, so my arts get kind of neglected. Haha. Trying to work on that.
I also feel stress right on the stomach. And I also used to have a job working from home, but mine just didn’t pay enough for, like, an adult, so I eventually had to leave it.
I love having options, but hate making decisions. Haha. Good luck!
@free_spirit_gal The work at home job actually paid very well. Unfortunately change in management at the client had decided they don’t need me. Actually it is a good thing because I am a contractor so no benefits and the same work all the time is totally booooring. Money isn’t the sole deciding factor. The one does have a changing schedule but there are long periods between the change so you can settle in a routine. The money is ok…but pays JUST enough to cover the bills but not enough to have extra….which would probably lead to me getting a second job…and I am getting too old for all that working lol
@dumbestsmartgirl Haha I totally get it. Yeah, I was just saying that my job from home didn’t pay enough, which is why I had to leave, but working from home is so great, when you find the right thing. I also had one that sucked and was really stressful, so again, the right thing. Haha. Idk, sometimes I try to picture myself in each situation. Like, sometimes the idea of a job is one thing, but actually doing it surprises you. I never thought I’d be a desk girl, I’ve always been creative, but by being forced to do a brainless, receptionist job a couple of times, i realized it gave me the lifestyle I needed to get everything else done. But only you know what would work for you, and the fact that you get to settle every time in the schedule does make it better. If you were to be 100% honest with yourself, which one do you want more? I say take that one.
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Welcome back to od and good luck on your job situations..try not to stress it too much , breathe in and out and the right choice will come..
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