Case of the Mondays…

So it is Monday. I have to have the apt done by tonight…and there is still a ways to go 🙁 I will probably just lose the security deposit because I don’t think I can stand to clean all night.

That being said, drama continues in the men department. Spoke to K39 and had a fun little talk. I enjoy talking to him so much…and he said a few things that leads to think he has potential….BUT that doesn’t change the family situation. I feel shallow. I feel selfish. I don’t want to have to not have any out of town trips because he can’t leave them alone. And he can’t fly….so that means no trips to Hawaii or any other locations. And how the hell would we go see my mom….half the vacation time would be spent driving….oh wait…he couldn’t go anyway because of the previous concern.

I think I will just have to tell him those are my reasons. I do really like him and every time I talk to him it confuses me. I hate feeling like a freaking teenager again with all the boy angst.

Well guess I better get to work and quit frettin over the boys. They are making my hair fall out — literally. I am going to be freaking bald on the top/front of my head. Too much stress. Which is why I just chose K39 originally so I could quit trying to decide between him and R52….but what can I say, still flipping back and forth lol

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I’ll go to Hawaii with ya, help you join the mile high club ;oP

Haha. you have a tough decision. your reasons for not wanting to get involved are completely valid. however..i can understand why you’d want to stay around. you can certainly use your previously mentioned “it’ll probably dissolve itself eventually” reason to stay. i’m a selfish **** so i probably totally would do that. but it’s also not fair to him. ugh. i am SO glad i am not in your shoes!!

i’ll take these nasty ass roaches over this dilemma you’re facing.