Blah and Blah and Blah….

Ok so the blah feeling continues onto Sunday.

N basically told me I was being grumpy all day and he was trying to stay out of my way. I was. Grumpy, bitchy, whatever you want to call it. He was mad because he said I was upset and wouldn’t talk to him – asked if it was something with him…

I told him he is the one good thing in my life. Money sucks. Work sucks. I actually got really upset – told him he was being a little bit of an ass cause he was giving me such a hard time about being grumpy. Actually started crying — told him I was sorry…I was just in a mood.

I do a really good job of ignoring all the jacked up shit I have going with money, etc…..but eventually it catches up to me and I have a day or two or a week where I am just in a blah mood…don’t feel like talking to people or doing anything…unfortunately that was this weekend.

He was upset because it is the only couple of days we usually get where we can spend any time together. I understand that….that made me feel even worse honestly.

New subject…..

So Friday I posted a status on facebook that said

"Love the day u realize that something bad that happened in the past has led u to the best thing that ever happened to u" Got lots of likes on it and was just a nice feel good kinda day

This morning I found an email the ex sent me yesterday asking if he was the bad I mentioned. I told him no…not HIM specifically but yes part of it was what we went through with the break up.

He got all butt hurt and said he would appreciate it if I wouldn’t say bad things about him on facebook when I have his kids on there as friends. He also said I needed to get over it and quit acting like our whole time together was bad…blah blah blah

I started a nice response to him and then was like oh hell no…

so it included this section:

And fuck you…I am sick of people telling me what I should or should not think about. My mind will think about whatever it wants. I am fucking happy right now. Work sucks and money sucks but I am damn happy with my love life at the moment. I was trying not to say anything that would hurt you. The fact is I am happier than I have ever been…with anyone I have ever been with.

So I am pissed right now — because I though you and I were good. We were talking and having fun when we talked….just football and shooting the shit. I see now that while I would like to say we are friends, that is never going to happen.

I am tired of the bullshit..so guess that’s it. Don’t feel obligated to keep talking to me — you had already said you would stop…so let me help you…that’s it…we’re done…have a good life.

     I then sent a second one that just said I took your mom and kids off my facebook so you don’t have to worry about what I say.

Too much drama from a man I broke up with over a year ago. I am sick of his pity parties and him realizing his life sucks and mine is going good.