Two Months

I’m burning your candle for the first time tonight. It’s a St. Francis statue. You’re really on my mind tonight.

I actually went the past two days without crying for you but tonight I’m making up for it. It’s been almost two months since you left me and it still hurts so much. The only thing I’m thankful for is that it’s now not a constant pain. My heart hurts from your absence. I know I’ve said it so many times but I’ll never be me without you. I miss you, sweet Duke. I miss saying your name, seeing and hearing how happy you were to go for rides. Stay safe at the RB and wait for me, ok? I hope the time doesn’t seem as long to you as it does to me.

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January 10, 2007

tears & hugs from me…xoxoxoxo

January 11, 2007

waiting for you won’t seem long to him. i know it will seem to be forever to you, though. the grief and pain will come in waves. things will trigger memories and the pain will wash over you. go with it. hurt, cry and miss him terribly. then, you’ll feel better for a day or so and then it will come again. as time passes, you’ll feel better for longer and longer periods of time. one day, you’ll realize that the pain is still there but it won’t hurt near so bad. just give yourself all the time you need to grieve for him. and don’t allow anyone to make you feel bad that you are still grieving for him months later. each of us grieves differently. so, take as long as you need. prayers for your heart. take care,