crushing reality

So…lately.

Like everyone else, I’m truly feeling the financial crush of everything going on right now. It’s forcing me into a few corners that I don’t really appreciate. I’m currently trying to figure out a way to cut costs dramatically and I keep coming up with the same solution: why am I paying $17,000 a semester for school when I could be paying $2000 for the same education, if not better and slightly more in depth? I really don’t want to leave Manhattan. I truly love it here. Add the opportunity for internships and it becomes a priceless experience.

The problem with the Manhattan internships is that (and I’m pulling this number out of my ass) 90% of the internships available are unpaid. I’m in that situation right now and I’m pretty sure that’s going to get worse in the coming months. On the other hand, I’m fortunate enough to be close enough to Manhattan that if I need to I could commute once or twice a week for an internship if absolutely necessary, but that adds up quick. Going back upstate and going to a SUNY would save me so much money because I could live at home with little to no expenses other than helping my aunt and uncle out where I can. As much as I want to stay here I’m beginning to think that the option is becoming less and less practical and more of a hinderance.

There are so many things for me to consider I’m starting to get a little uneasy about everything. I have so much on my plate that it’s beginning to get a tad bit overwhelming. I guess I’m going to take it one step at a time and go from there.