What’s wrong with me?

I saw Tim yesterday. I saw him while I was walking by to go home from school. I asked him casually where he was going and he told me he was going to his friend’s Elvis’s so, so without really realizing it, I started walking with him. We got there and I said hi to Elvis. Told him about school and what else was going on. After awhile we left and went to Workplus (its place to find a job) afte we left there we walked to a few places. While walking, his roommate saw us and stopped and drove us back to the house. So Tim and I went upstairs to his room. We sat and watched tv. After while we talked about some stuff, what he was up to and what not.

Then he popped in a few CDs. We played a lil game of who we thought the artists were. He popped in one CD that I will just say . . .
was strung with XXX explicit songs. We busted out laughing at some of them. While sitting, we looked at each other and while the CD
was playing, we kissed. He started sliding his hands over my body. Needless to say, my brain froze at that moment, but I kept kissing him.
I took off my shirt then he unsnapped my bra. This is when my brain switched back on and I looked at the clock. I told him I had to get home.

So he locked the door and walked me home. On the way, we talked and joked like old times. I think we both forgot we weren’t together anymore. But it was nice. I also know that if I’m not careful I’m going to end up having sex with him. And I’m ashamed to admit it but I wanted it to happen, but I knew it was late. But what’s wrong with me. I broke up with him. I told him it wasn’t working. And yet, I’m kissing him like we’re still together. Is this normal? Is it just me and him revisiting feelings? I know we still got feelings.
There’s no doubt about that. I just don’t understand. Maybe I shouldnt….
I know I felt bad because I lied to one of my friends when they asked me where I had been.
I didn’t want them to know I had been with him or what had almost happened cause I know I would have gotten a lecture.

Anyway I just wanted to get that off my chest. I hope you girls/guys let me know if this has ever
happened to you so I won’t feel so bad lol

Later!