Been awhile, sorry!

Hey eveyone. Hope you guys have been doing alright. I’ve been okay.  Just been working and reading.
I saw an ex while I was out today and it unnerved me. Maybe because of all the bad memories. He recognized me and of course I recognized him. He asked how I could walk in and not say hi to him. I told him that I knew him and walked around him.
He walked up to me and said, "Wow, you look awesome." I looked at him if I was seeing an alien. I thanked him and saw that he was with some skinny white chick. He asked me in front of her if I had a number. I told him no. He then turned and went to the back of the store for something. I quickly got what I needed and got in line. Unfortunately, the line wasn’t quick enough. I could feel him looking at me when he came back. He went in the other line. He left and me and the cashier started talking. She knew him and I told her about him and me. She looked at me in shock. I thanked her and walked out. I came home and found I was still feeling uneasy. Went on the porch and talked to my uncle for a few seconds and came inside.
The guy I saw physically abused me. I’m not going to list what he did to me throughout the year that we dated, but it was bad.
A car accident stopped the relationship entirely. That was back in 2007 and he still gives me a sick feeling every time I see him.

Anyway, I’ve been trying to find a second job. My main one is cutting back my hours and it seems like everything is taking forever to get accomplished. Car, apt, etc. It just seems like its never going to happen. I look around and all these people I know are getting apts and cars and they don’t have a job the first and here I am working and going to school and what do I have? It’s bullshit I tell you. I’m going to get off here people. Have a good night.