10 years

I never would have thought Opendiary would be here again. Though I must say, I thought I had written a lot more entries than this but it’s good to see its back. After reading an old post of me trying to get pregnant and trying to figure out who that “friend” was, I chalked it up to nothing lost.
The good news is is that I had my child that I was asking for. A girl. She’s 3 and a handful but so smart.

For her, all this lockdown means is she gets to spend more time with mommy and daddy. Though I am getting sick of seeing his ass on my couch. I have tried figuring out ways to entertain her but I’ve all but given up. She does her tracing and she colors and watches movies. That’s the extend of our day anymore.

I can’t wait til this shit is over. They have extended our layoff 3 times now. First we were supposed to go back the 3rd then it was the 7th. Now they’re saying we won’t go back til the 4th of May. There goes our July shutdown. Hell, we’re already on shutdown. It would be different if we could go somewhere and spend time with family but this virus has it to where we can’t even go around the block.

I hope everyone is safe and healthy.

The DiaryMaster

Nice to see you here! I hope your family is safe and healthy as well 🙂

free_spirit_gal

Hiiii! So nice to see you here, and congrats on having the child you were trying for! So you and the dad are not together, but quarantined together? That’s gotta be tough, my cousin is doing that with his ex-wife too, for their kid. My sister is going nuts with her two kids, so while we’re trying, I’m scared lol. I also wanna be able to go to the doctor whenever I want when I’m pregnant, and see family and such, but we’re getting older and older, and I’m not sure how long I wanna try for, personally, even if it’s doable. I’m open to having them, adopting them, and even not having them, so for now just making it possible, and seeing what the universe says haha.

That’s tough that you’ve been laid off, and it keeps extending. We got so lucky, that Brian (he’s my husband now, used to be my best friend back in the day) already works from home for his LA employer as a Software Engineer, and his company is still doing ok, and that I got a job three weeks before this whole thing started that allowed me to take calls from home, so for now, we’re both employed. We’re also still able to take walks outdoors here, since it’s been a bit chilly and almost nobody is out. There’s a truck on the beach regulating, so we will see what happens in the summer. If I go a day or two without a walk outside, I go nuts, so I can’t imagine how you feel. I’m super paranoid going to grocery stores too. It’s just really odd times. The things I’ve found have helped me stay sane are: I still have a schedule, where I wake up early and do video workouts, I meditate every day, even if just for five minutes, I do the outside walks, and ZI connect with people online, watching movies, doing yoga, playing online games, or just chatting. I’m actually connecting with people I never really talk to, because everyone is craving connection. I like alone time, but have been making an effort so I’m not completely isolated. I also chose this year as a rest year from our travels, and I’m so glad, though I had no idea this would happen. Haha.

Stay safe and healthy. I hope we get out of this sane.