Travel Bug and Birthday

I am officially feeling the travel bug. I want to go somewhere so badly! My number one place is Greece. I keep hoping there’ll be another opportunity through the school to go somewhere. But I know a trip to Greece won’t happen this year. I’m told maybe next near, but who knows.

I’ve been thinking about what I want to do for my birthday this year. It’s in a couple months. I really don’t want to have another party. I’m kinda burnt out on the whole thing. I like planning things and getting people together. The problem is I just don’t have a lot of friends, and the friends that I do have all have really busy lives. I understand, we’re in college. There’ve been  times that I’ve planned my birthday party and times that I’ve done something really informal and laid back. Either way it never really turns out how I want it to. I guess my expectations are too high. So now I’m thinking I’ll just scrap the whole party idea and just do something for myself, something that I want to do.

I made this friend from my month in England who lives in NYC. I live very far away from NYC. I haven’t asked her yet, and it would be kinda risky since I only spent a month around her, but I’ve been thinking about maybe going up to NYC for a weekend. She’s hilarious and we get along really well. And usually being able to travel with someone is a good sign for friendship. She lives in a house with two roommates. If I stayed with her all I’d be paying for is the plane ticket, food, and whatever activities we wanted to do. What I’d most like to do is go see a musical or play.

I’ve just gotten to the point where I feel like I’m trying to throw a party for other people, instead of doing something fun for myself. It’s my birthday after all. Shouldn’t it be the day where I think about myself and do what I want? Who knows what I’ll end up doing. All I know is that I’m not gonna put together another party.