NJM1: chaos butterfly
Although the first day of winter lingers, I cant help but feel comforted by the cloud cover that has slowly made its way to my little corner of the world. Today is chilly and mild, with slight chance of showers later on this afternoon. Id rather be anywhere but here.
Truthfully, it is getting harder and harder to make myself get up every morning. Sure, Im sure that there are elements of depression when facing the end of your 8 year job. The start of November means that the final countdown has begun. Being here is demoralizing. Its just a constant reminder that its all ending, and I cant conceive of days where I wont see a lot of my friends.
I broke down last night and just cried. It was the first time I really felt the weight of everything all at once, and it was far too much. I interviewed last week for a position nearby that I actually really want. Out of hundreds of resumes, the hiring manager said that mine stood out because of my diversity and my team spirit. She told me that shes picky about who she hires for her team because they are a cohesive unit, and that she feels I would be a very good fit. She made sure to say she couldnt guarantee anything, though, but Im taking it as a good sign. I havent heard anything yet, but its month end and all accounting departments (except for mine) are scrambling like mad. Im desperately trying to cling to my last shred of hope but I dont know how long that will last.
Took some testing for a few positions, and one of my scores came back already. I had to get at least a 70, and I passed with 81. The position that Im actually crossing my fingers for tested me and I scored in the 98 percentile, which felt good.
I have a new computer named Willow. Its fast, its got a huge memory and a processor thats triple the speed of my old one. Ive finally been able to play Heroes 6 after a year of waiting and really all I want to do is go home and play and forget what day it is altogether. That should keep me occupied for a few months.
Happy first day of winter, world. I hope this November is a good one.
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